Witchcraft - Sorrow Evoker
From Witchcraft's Firewood. DL link;
I like many kinds of different musics. I've been listening to it and trying (poorly) to make music for so long its almost like the genres and groups have blended together for me. I only have one other friend like this who can seem to enjoy good music for being good music and not for aesthetic value or how good the song makes him feel. Some people I've met can't listen to negative music, as if the negativity in the songs would affect their mood in some way. I like listening to melancholy tunes when I am sad, it is almost cathartic and affirming in a way knowing there are others out there who are unafraid to feel sadness.
I guess that would be a good way to lead into my opinion on antidepressants and the pharmaceutical industry in general. My family and I have a very long and troubled history with the pharmaceuticals, you see after my younger brother was born my mom was diagnosed with that one form of depression women get after giving birth (forgot what its called) and so she was put on antidepressants.. Instead of helping her feel better however it seemed the antidepressants only drew out her depression into a continuing struggle to feel happiness. After a while on the pills she became manic and had to be hospitalized, she was diagnosed then with bipolar disorder and put on lithium and like 4 other pills which she has to take daily.. Of course trusting the doctors she and my father decided that this was the only option, indeed the doctors made it clear there was no other way to treat depression and mental illness in general with anything but pills and more pills. No change in diet was ever suggested, exercise was always implied but never stressed. While the pills seemed to stabilize her for at least 6 months at a time she would always eventually have a breakdown and have to be hospitalized again, usually once or twice a year, and always it seemed these episodes would happen when she would try to taper herself off of the medication.
The conversations I had with my mothers "doctors" would always contain words like b"chemical imbalance in the brain", this is what they claim causes my mother's bipolar disorder and periodic manic episodes. To me it is so obvious how much of a lie this is especially when I started to research the withdrawal symptoms of a few of her medications, the most interesting being seroquel. Take a look at the withdrawal symptoms of seroquel taken from http://bipolar-disorder.emedtv.com/seroquel/seroquel-withdrawal.html;
"Seroquel withdrawal symptoms can include but are not limited to:
* Nausea and vomiting
* Symptoms of schizophrenia (such as hallucinations or delusions)
* Bipolar disorder symptoms (such as mania or depression). "
It is a sad joke to me that it is never mentioned to my parents that these symptoms will go away after she is done withdrawing from her "medications". I have told them time and time again but rather than face a difficult withdraw period they always choose to continue medicating with these poisons. The only chemical imbalance in my mothers brain is the pills she is eating every night under doctors orders. Please if you or anyone in your family is ever prescribed seroquel by a doctor THROW THAT SHIT IN THE GARBAGE AND TELL THAT DOCTOR TO FUCK OFF! It is obvious to me that if my mother had decided that a healthier lifestyle would have benefited her depression instead of medicating with pills we would have avoided years of hardship and uncertainty!
Kinda have no idea how I went from music to ramblings about family life but there you go.